This picture, encapsulated, is what I want. If I could take an old Airstream and fix it up into a Taco Truck, I would. Now, granted, I also want to have a "Used Book Store/Junk Store"... add into that mix my love of writing. I guess it pretty much leaves my dreams all mixed up --- a melange of all my wants and desires tangled up into one hot mess. This is what life is made of. What we want to do with our lives, and what we end up actually accomplishing. But who says we can't do what we want? Who says we have to sit in our little shells and stay content with what we have? Now I'm not saying I'm not content --- I'm so happy with my family and my little cottage. Nothing could make me happier. I feel, though, that God made us for more. Not long ago I posted a quote on Facebook that went something like this: "Your natural abilities are God's suggestions for your life's work." quote by Clyde Narramore. So what happens when you're good at writing, good at junking, a pro at finding books on the cheap, and have a husband that's the best mexican chef around? I'm guessing in our case you start a painting business. :) In all seriousness, life happens. You have kids, you live day to day and your dreams get shuffled under the rug along with all the rest of the dust bunnies of life. On occasion we lift up that rug, sweep out the dust, contemplate it, then lay the rug back down to gather dirt all over again. I think there comes a point in life though, when that rug is worn out. It's time to pick it up and throw it away. And what do you know? All those dreams come to the surface and make your heart throb with the passion you thought you had laid to rest. This period in my life is bringing lots of things to the surface. My kids are older, and my husband and I don't feel like wasting alot of time of things we don't love. Navigating this tricky world sometimes leaves us weary and face down in the dirt. God knows what we need --- but he also knows what we want. Being the good Father that He is, he wants to give us some of those things. Anyone being a parent knows how we love to give gifts to our children. How do we know what they want, though, if they don't ask? I know that everything we ask for isn't going to be given to us, but God longs to bless us! He knows I want an Airstream for a Taco Truck and he knows I want a space in which to full with blissful junk and lovely used books. Tack on in there a space to write to my hearts' content --- and the funds to do it with. Oh, I know I won't get it all --- but at least I've realized that God wants me to ask for it. I'm ready to do what it takes, and accept what it is in this life that He wants me to do.
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