Monday, July 27, 2015

Hello Monday

Hello Monday.

You of normally hurried minutes that diminish rapidly through a hazy time continuum. Today I met you with problems consisting of regular things, yet clouded mind. Money and things and issues and future happenings stirred in my brain this sunny day. Though the sun met me with warmth and color and flowers that were blooming on my porch.

Ordinary days filled with troubles that aren't really troubles.
Ways to meet obligations and fulfill them drift through me,
pressing, gently pushing.

This morning, yet again, I've given it over to the one who knows me, and embraces me still though I've wandered far. Always wandering and wanting something more and different than the light of a regular Monday morning.

Today I work, gather groceries, and scribble poetry in a simple notebook in the dappled light of my porch. My haven and the place where my thoughts come together. A place where the book coming through my heart to my fingers finds purchase, and spills out onto an electronically-organized machine I hold in my lap. I will write these words one inch at a time until they are spent.

I greet you, new week, with messy thoughts and high hopes that will accomplish half of what I normally wish for a refreshed seven days. I will move through each minute and try to make it count. Each word and thought, held captive.

And I begin the day.

Saturday, July 4, 2015

I see you America

I know you, America.

I see you in the tiny back roads where wildflowers
bloom and droop with the dust that covers them. Where
I wander and watch verdant woods filled with green
inch past my window.

I feel you in the breezes that fall across my face,
as I am free to travel your craggy terrain and find
new places you have hidden from me. This, in your 
excitement for me to explore you.

You are on my front porch where I am free to seek refuge
and form prose that falls from my fingertips like 
blood, cut from jagged edges. Where I find the hard 
words more defiantly than anywhere else.

I know you, America. 
You are not 'Merica.

You are more than patriotic vitriol spoken with
careless abandon, without connecting brain or tongue.
Words wrapped in a flag and handed to you at birth
to blindly worship and tread softly around.

You are more than a flag, fibers and pigments colored
to make red-hued stripes and white stars, signifying a 
birthright of undying allegiance. The foggy wars we've
fought as we're spoon-fed the pablum of liberty.

Freedom isn't free, because it's a state of mind.

Liberty comes in the freedom to make decisions of
who I am and choose to be. It comes to me in the words
I say and the people I love freely, without fear
of someone saying I can't.

I see you, America.

In the faces of my children as they ford the waters
of this life that aren't easy to cross. As they 
scrape and scrounge and do and be. I see America
in their faces, fiercely shining in their will to 
accomplish much as resistance presses them.

I see you in my husband, who made your harsh
and beautifully unfolding land his own, leaving behind a home
where familiar creases would have lined his face. Where
smoke from comfortable fires burn and 
the smells and senses could wake
him up to what he left, though a home made now, 
where he chose to make it.

In myself, though older in body, yet young in spirit.
My chance to also do and be and see new things
and walk different paths. I don't need a flag in my
face to tell me I can accomplish much. 
Neither the cold grip of metal
in my hand to say I'm American. 


Not 'Merica. Where to be an American means 
gripping tight to words long ago spoken, 
and wrapping ourselves in a cloak
of rigid freedoms we hold tightly 'til death. 

Your wind whispers to me in the night, and I
wrap that caress around me as I find you in a 
darkened sky lit with dying stars.

I want to meld you with 'Merica and find an 
uncomfortable place, where we can relish in 
your goodness together. Instead of divided,
from the precipice I now stand on.