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auto pilot

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Well, I'm back.....I've been off in the real world having garage sales, working, and whatnot. Blogging hasn't been my number one priority. Today is my first day being alone in a while. I guess that's why I haven't posted.....I normally do that when I'm alone! Right now I feel as if things are on auto-pilot.....hence the title of this post. Things have been so up in the air with finances, the future, etc. , and right now we're just cruising along at one altitude. George's work has picked up so things are going a little smoother there. I've been in such turmoil though....what does my life hold? Where are we supposed to be in this world? I haven't even been able to concentrate enough to read a book, and for me, that means my world is upside down! So, it's kind of nice to have things on an even (although wobbly) keel. I got an anniversary card from Mary Hummel the other day. The cover said this, "For I know the plans I have for you," sa

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"Who, being loved, is poor?" oscar wilde
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Right now...this is what I need. I need God's hands to pluck me from this earth...dust me off...and give me his version of what he wants me to do. I thought that I'd been listening for it...his will for us. Somehow my ears have become deaf and I need a sharp slap to the head to unplug them. My mind is spinning and I can't focus. I guess that's because I haven't been focusing on Him. I've only been focusing on what is wrong with our lives. I've been too busy worrying where the money will come from next to really sit down and listen for His voice. I'm sorry, Lord. Since last fall especially, nothing has gone right financially. We struggle day to day just to get food on the table. Job opportunities come, and then they go. Then we sit on the couch and just stare at each other or into space wondering what is happening with our lives. I think we're being pushed.....pushed out of our little space in the world that has become too comfortable. G